Right now, these days, if someone special was to come into my life, I can honestly think I can be committed and give them my all. Not because I’m desperate, but because right now I have love to give, and know how to give it. But I didn’t know how to do that until it was too late. I screwed up all my good choices so far. I can honestly say that I don’t see much more for me. Older people always tell me I’m only 16. They say there are more people and one day I’ll find the one. But they weren’t in my time with my life. They can’t understand. Tumblr and facebook changed my life. Unlike me, back then people didn’t meet all over the state, continent or world so easily. Now with advances of the internet I can know more about a person halfway around the world on a deeper level than their own parents and friends by just reading their blog. I took advantage of that. People opened up to me, and I opened up to them. Social networks turned into a dating site. Overwhelming with perfect matches. Instead of picking one, I was like many others and picked all of them. Doing so, I killed them of one by one so I could hop to the next one. That was my biggest mistake. Nowadays, as a changed person, I realized that reputation will stick with me forever. Whoever I may talk to next, I know for certain, that they know someone I had something with. If that doesn’t drive them away, then they drive themselves away because all they want is sex. But now, people don’t seem real anymore. I find myself trusting no one. I want to, but I can’t. From friends to relationships. Before I had perfect matches. But now I don’t. I went through all of them already. Now I actually have real love to give and no one real and right to give it to. I get sad. I can’t believe what I used to be. Even though it taught me a great deal, I wished I learn a better way. Too bad I’m not a person who can just run on sex and weed. 

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